better together

all right, all i really want to do this morning is lie in my bed for about three hours and listen to jack johnson and be sentimental. it is cloudy and it rained last night and i missed it and it sort of cooled things down but it's still humid the way the end of summer is.

there's no combination of words i could put on the back of a postcard
no song that i could sing, but i could try for your heart

i wish there was time in law school to take a moment and process all of the things that actually happen in life. it's incredible how much has changed in just the last five weeks, but i feel like i've never really taken the time to come to terms with it all. i mean, how can you ignore the evidence reading? or the massproof assignment? or the draft memo that's due? it seems like law school creates this alternate universe where real life just doesn't exist...but what happens when real life and law life collide? it's so impossible to pick which should be more important. and maybe if i work just a little harder i'll be able to forget about all that other stuff for a second. i'll just set it aside and it'll all work out. or i could focus on it and let my law life fall apart. at least i already have a job. but something tells me that the books will win out on this one. i don't even feel like myself when the work's not done. and i shouldn't give it such a bad rap -- i really do love this stuff. i am a nerd at heart and have to admit to a certain amount of enthusiasm about reading environmental law statutes.

our dreams,
and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-toned lovin'

it's funny because over the past month i've been having all of these experiences that cause me to put such a higher premium on real life over law life. it's hard to imagine that the hearsay rule is all-important when you're milling around the produce section at whole foods. or walking from georgetown to dupont with the leaves just turning. or wondering when you will sit on the grass and look at the sky. and when you know such wonderful people, how could you not want to spend every minute you could just enjoying their company? i really do have the best friends in the world.

love is the answer, at least for most of the questions of my heart
why are we here? and where do we go? and how come it's so hard?

it's impossible not to look around these days and be struck with how incredibly beautiful the world is. east coast autumn is maybe my favourite time of the year (though i find myself yearning for snow these days) and when i get to thinking about life for a minute (not too often...isn't that what these ridiculously introspective blog entries are for?) i realize that i couldn't be more fortunate. i find it so hard to be upset about anything at all when there is so much good to enjoy. so here is my resolution: i will make the most of my three-day weekends. i will spend them with the people i love and i will do all of the things that i have always wanted to do and i will take pictures and i will enjoy it. and there will be a healthy amount of studying involved as well. something tells me i can have the best of both worlds.

it's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
i'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together